Read more on Ricki Lake speaking on the loss of her eternal soul mate…
Lake felt compelled to speak on Christian Evans taking his life at 45-years-old. She revealed that he had been battling bipolar disorder, and that his manic episodes had led to the couple’s divorce in 2015.
“I have to spread the word about recognizing this disorder and getting treatment as soon as possible. Christian didn’t want to be labeled as bipolar, but he admitted he was in the note he left. That was him finally owning it. That was him giving me permission to tell his story.”
Lake and Evans started dating in 2010. She explains:
“I felt like the luckiest girl that he chose me. He was the funniest person. He was so charismatic. He had a lot of self-esteem issues and a lot of demons. But I understood him, and he was someone that I think a lot of people misunderstood.”
She goes on to reveal that two settled into their life together after they got married in 2012.
“We never fought, we never had an argument. He showed up for my kids (Milo, 19, and Owen, 15, with Rob Sussman). He was this quiet force that was just all about love and goodness and wanting to help people.”
It wasn’t until 2014, when Lake first witnessed one of Evans’ manic episodes.
“I didn’t know what the hell hit me, because I didn’t know what it looked like, so I didn’t see it coming. For me, someone who has lived with him for four years and seen how hard it was for him to get out of bed and be excited for things, I saw him starting to be happy. It presented initially as him being motivated. I “thought he could fly. He thought he could cure cancer with his hands.”
“It was horrific. He just wasn’t the person I had been with for four years.”
Ricki Lake followed the advice of their therapist to cut off contact Evans until he was stabilized. Lake did that and then filed for divorce the following month. As for Evans, he ended up being hospitalized under a 5150 hold. He was treated for bipolar disorder.
The problem with Christian is that “He didn’t want to be there, and he didn’t want to be medicated. But he did it to appease me.” After Evans was released, the two continued their relationship, despite their divorce being finalized in 2015. Lake recalls her ex as unstable and fragile.
Ricki Lake explains Christian Was Unstable:
“He wasn’t stable, and he was so fragile. But I was still in love with him, so there was something romantic about it. I wanted to save him.”
“A magical celebration of my beloved eternal soulmate #christianevans. #twinflames ?? 11:11 ?”
On February 28, 2017, Ricki Lake posted this video on the gram:
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Lake says that she was working in London when she received a text on Feb. 11 from Evans’ sister saying he had emailed a suicide note. It was one of those heart stopping moments where you swallow you heart, and it gets stuck in your throat and you can’t speak.
“I knew he was having an episode, and there was nothing I could do. I knew right then that he was gone. Everybody thought he was missing, but I knew.”
He was found two days later in his car with a self-inflicted gunshot wound, Lake said through tears:
“He did the best he could. The struggle was just too much for him.”
Lake made a vow to him and too herself:
“I am going to try my best to honor him by living a full and happy life.”
The former talk show host did just that last night with a ceremony remembering Christian Evans with a floating lanterns in the night sky (seen above).
If you or someone you know is struggling with bipolar disorder, please call 1-800-662-HELP (4357) or visit the National Institute of Mental Health online at nimh.nih.gov. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is open 24 hours a day. Call 1-800-273-8255.